Jimmy Fallon, replacing Conan? And the Roots as his back
up band? Has America gone completely topsy turvy since I left? The Village Voice is thinner and more full of ads than ever. Gentrification is clearly on the rise- I havent seen more hipsters in Fort Greene and Lower East Side than at a Hipster Convention in an art gallery of noise bands.
Is it me, or am I very disillusioned? I have seen how the other side of the world lives and the U.S. seems small and very outdated in comparison. Even with the recession, people seem very materialistic (filling that emptiness with a coach bag) and to be honest, self-centered, all about getting what's theirs. I pick up spiritual magazines full of white bred gurus promising happiness in a two hour beatnik workshop. Meanwhile, there are still poor people of color doing most of the menial labor while the reigning class play tennis, complaining that Obama is giving handouts and all illegal immigrants need to stop cleaning my bathroom and go back to their home country. As much as I believe in self-healing and sending out positive energy in the world, I think there is still a community largely being ignored and taken advantage of. America, where are you going? Gee, I miss Bernie Mac.
The only thing I missed living abroad was Brooklyn pizza. Outside America the treat was the ease in which we could see new places and talk about new ideas with folks who could barely speak English. Am I a travel addict?
Ive been babysitting for three beautiful children the past week(filling in for a friend) and seeking work relevant to my goals andexperience. A big part of me wants to run back to Asia where I felt more connected with my life mission, learning more about what's inside me by being a foreigner. Although the resources here seem more abundant, it is difficult for me to share a space with my Mom and brother until I get a job and find a studio to continue making art. You know how everyone wants to "make it" in New York and as it is my hometown i am very over trying run with that crowd.
I miss Hainan very much and cant help but think occasionally what Iwould be doing if I were there now, where it is warm and the people are always laughing. I'm gonna start taking continuing ed classes in acting and belly dance while I look for grants/residency/ someone who will hire me to do what I do best- which I am still figuring out.
You are inspirations to me, Eileen
You are inspirations to me, Eileen
